Anto talk..

Well, its beena  while since i have been writing here, so i was thinking i am gonna try to write some words now:P

I have been thinking lately.. ALLOT! The thing is that i am thinking to go back to school.. But then i have to go with ppl that are 16 uears old.. Can i handle that? I hope so.. Because i think its what i want to do.. Gonna think a little more about that:)

And about my job.. Well, i didnt get any job, so i had to go to a company and get some help.. So now i work a place for that company and doesnt get so good payed.. But its what i got so i just have to take what i get:P I hope things will get better one day. Dont like anything when it comes to a job, its so wrong in my eyes.. Ppl thats not from norway get a job, but me, a little girl that is born here, do i get a job? No.. stupid shit.. So i guess i want to go to school again.. :P

SINGLE!

Here i am;) Lol, just kidding.. I kinda like to be single, and i hate it.. I see ppl that kiss, hold hands and hugs and all that, and i see manny that have a little baby.. I want too.. One day, gonna be manny years too, but still one day i will have a big family with a big beautiful house :D hehe..

What do i want to be in this life?

Its a big question for me. I have no clue what i want to be in my life. i feel  stucked.

My parents know what they want me to be, but i dont know. I am working at the moment, dont get so much money, but i try, i really do. but almost all my friends are working with their education, and here i am, the working lady with no finnish education.. So i use everyday to think. I am trying to figure out what i can do, because the job life its not me right now, i think i feel like this because i know i dont have any education..

I kinda have one little idea in my head, its to finish my education, and maybe move to another country and study, or something else, i dont know. I have to much in my brain atm. I really hate that we have to choose something we want to study when we are 15-16 years old, i went with my friends, almost didnt choose myself.. A little of me wanted to work with children, but i dont know if its that i want to do now. And then i still went after my friends, and the last year at school i got really bad grades. Then i desided to take a free year, i went to school, but its not like a normal school with grades.. It was a funny year, best year ever. Will never forget it.

And now i live in Trondheim working. I like it at work, love the ppl, but i hate that i dont get so much money.. So i am trying to figure things out.

Maybe i move to USA wich has popped up in my mind (not all by myself but that is another story)

I wonder can you hide toughts? That would be great..

And how do i handle my parents? They understand sometimes, but not always.

Friends, yeah i know i have friends. And some pretty good friends to. <3

So whats wrong with me? I suppose its nothing wrong. But it feels like that sometimes.. I suck in school..

Some day maybe i know.. Where i am in my life.. but i want to know. I want an education, i want a man, i want children, and a little dog. A big house :D Thats my dream, and i want to try to make it happen :)

Work tomorrow

Well, then its time for me to start working again.. Gonna be good to get outside the house and meet other ppl again XD hehe.. i do meet ppl, but i dont have so manny friends here.. But i guess i get more after a while:)

I want go skiing:D Gonna travel to Grong where i went to school.. Best year ever. And i LOVE snow <3<3>

well, now i have to start and write english, because somebody want be to write blog now (lance, yeah i am talking to you :P).. so i figured out, ok.. i do it.. Well, christmas was fun.. getting drunk at home with my friends there and my brothers.. But it was good to come home to trondheim again:) me love this place :)

I really dont have so much to say, so i just write crap all the way. Kathy is the most wonderful person ever.. she is like my best friend Stine Marie:D they are awesome..

And now, ehm, i am drunk, and i am tired.. so i think i maybe have to sleep.. havent sleept yet.. not good.. :/ well.. this is all form me today..

lance, it will come more, maybe pictures too;) so you can enjoy it;) hehe:P And pervie, its all to you too. so dont feel forgotten;)

bye for now..

A sleepy Anto -.-